Waking Up
Have you ever had a moment in your life where you literally “snap awake” and realize, HOLY S%$&, what am I doing? It could be triggered by tragedy, illness, or it could be just a regular Tuesday.
For me, it was in January 2021. We were still in the throws of Covid, my husband and I were both working 40+ hours a week, our kids were in full time daycare, and we were miserable.
Nothing was working. Our house was constantly trashed, we were living off noodles and takeout. I was always sick, angry, and completely disconnected from my life. I hated my job more and more every day. I think the worst part was how miserable my kids were.
The tipping point was when we had to put down both of our pets due to a freak accident within 5 days of each other. My heart absolutely broke open, especially putting down my dog of 6 years. She was MY dog. My first baby. I trained her, slept with her every night, and loved her more than I even knew.
But with great tragedy brought great clarity. It woke me the eff up. I snapped awake, heartbroken but eyes wide open, and vowed to change everything. And I did.
Within a month of that incident, I resigned from my job with no plans of getting a new one. I yanked my kids out of daycare (more on that experience later), and started therapy again. I knew I had a long road of healing ahead of me.
So much wasn’t right. Our home, physical health, mental health, and lifestyle all needed to be overhauled. I vowed to never again ignore my gut and intuition. I vowed to never again avoid what my inner self was feeling and needing. And I vowed to truly listen to my children and their needs.
This is that journey. It is no where near perfect, and in fact I am embracing the CHAOS. I am learning that the world is not so black and white. There really is no “right” way to do things. I am stepping so fully into creating the exact world that I want to live in with my family.
It is a world full of nature, books, mess, love, craziness and tons of imperfect little moments that add up to a lifetime wrapped in authenticity and presence.
So I will start by asking you one question…
“Are you living your most authentic life?”
My dog Kuma
